Once again I find myself seeking fervently for God’s timing. Do I doubt? How could I after he’s proven himself to me over and over? What God has always shown me is “In my timing not yours”. So once again I find myself waiting patiently for the Lord.
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Here is the emotional process that I have been dealing with:
If anyone does not provide for his relatives, and especially for his immediate family, he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.
1 Timothy 5:8 (NIV)
Although I don’t have control over the economy or pocketbooks of others, am I failing my family and myself? If God is my provider, is he not also that for my family? What is my responsibility to my family? …to God? As the spiritual leader of my home and missionary, did I not offer up myself and my family to God as a sacrifice?
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship.
I had a secular job and it paid well, but I did not provide that job for myself or my family. God provided the job and money to teach me that he will always provide for me so that I may provide for my family.
Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment.
1 Timothy 6:16-18 (NIV)
So once again I find myself waiting patiently for the Lord.
Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised.
For I will ask nothing of the Lord that he does not want for me but I will ask for ALL that he wants of me.
So Abraham called that place The Lord Will Provide. And to this day it is said, “On the mountain of the Lord it will be provided.”